The dawn was so lovely this morning. Deep pinks fading to light on the horizon. I’m not very big into the pink except when it stealth creeps up on a dawn that knows it is supposed to still be Winter, but desires very much to be Spring. Such was the dawn this morning. I inhaled the […]

There are Two Things that are remnants from the childhood sexual abuse that are apparently never going to go away. Part of my current Work will be to find a way to accept them and live with them rather than be in constant battle with them that leaves me exhausted and unchanged. That will be […]

I miss my male friends from before I was married. Some (one) hung around for a bit after the marriage. They drifted, they moved, they felt weird after I married – many reasons, all of them valid and none of them (except one) True. Life is. I miss them dearly right now. In particular I […]

…. and I believe I did exactly that with the screams being open-mouthed yet silent. I mentioned in a blog post from mid-December that I would return to talking about dissociation (among other things) and that was the intent with this post. I cannot. It is near, still partially swirling/screeching to be written, but locked in my […]

Winter annoys me. I am fairly certain I annoy Winter, too. We are not friends. We are not even cordial acquaintances. We sometimes, barely, nod at each in passing while breathing hate in each other’s direction hoping for a quick demise. Thus far every season Winter has won, but so have I because I Am Still Here, […]

And tenderness is the "new" thing. Not simply inviting it into my life, but (OMGs!) actually being tender because (surprise! Surprise!) if you are such and open with it – people respond. Go figure! In one arena I needed to ask for tenderness and that is okay because sometimes mind-reading is not only overrated, but […]

So … things were rolling along nicely after the trancework at coven last week. Yup, like a dam breaking such was the relief. I was a little bit rolled for the first couple of days afterward, then near giddy over the weekend through …. last night. I knew "giddy" was almost as much of a […]

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What a post title! PT always starts out excellently. There are these lovely heat things put on a table and around my neck and I lie on my back, the lights are turned out and the door pulled to. I ground and decide what energy play of the day I will choose. Often I run the Iron Pentacle. […]